Why are we doing this?
It’s important to ask ourselves this question.
For whom? Do you ever stop and ask yourself why you want to act? Or Create? Or live your life as an artist?
Sometimes we lose connection to – or allow the business to contaminate – the original reasons why we wanted to create. And for that reason alone, it’s important to revisit the deeper reasons we call ourselves artists.
If it’s for the applause – that will fade away.
If it’s for the adulation, that will be replaced by someone else being the flavor of the month; younger, hotter, smarter, more “in.”
If it’s for approval, or acceptance, or worthiness, or love – you won’t find it anywhere outside of self – ever.
You can’t get it from a teacher or lover or friend or parent or casting director or agent.
You have to start doing it for you. For the reasons why you wanted to do it to begin with.
To create. To express. To have fun. To be human. To actually discover yourself.
Those are the real reasons we’re doing it and we’re not even aware of it. We’re not even aware of the deeper forces at play within ourselves that compel us to make art. To tell stories. To feel. To emote. To risk. To share. To live life courageously and vulnerably as an artist.
We’re brainwashed into thinking our challenges will be solved – we’ll have your “come to Jesus” moment – when we book the TV series or are starring opposite Russell Crowe or have the perfect boyfriend or the great house or nice car or perfect C-sized boobs – and what we realize is that the outer can never replace the inner.
Those things may be gratifying. Intoxicating. Exciting and fun. And those things are deserved. They’re wonderful. They can be career-building and part of our journey.
But real fulfillment is in our discovering not only who we are – but overcoming all the limitations we’ve placed on our humanity – simple restrictions of ourselves for being human – in the pursuit of this thing called acting.
We must start doing it for ourselves. Celebrate who we are. In the audition room. In the performance. In getting or not getting a job. In the victories and the struggles. In our deepest primal and spiritual connection to the reason we wanted to act in the first place:
To reflect back to humanity what it really means to be human.